Go for it!
Individuality and having the ability to progress without the accreditation of others is a beautiful gift that modern society tries to dilute in all of us.
If you have the ability to see beyond what’s before you, the bigger picture if you like, never ignore those gut instincts or that voice telling you to go for it. You might be one step away from a radical change to your circumstances.
Life is there to teach us lessons, it’s always there for living. Live and learn but always progress.
Fitness and Health
After going through diagnosis, the very first psychologist I encountered at the Autism Unit gave me the best advice I’ve ever had. After hearing about my struggles he explained to me that I have excess testosterone and that if there was one way to help my mind and emotions it would be to take part in high octane sport like running or swimming. This is at a time where I’d never set foot in a swimming pool as an adult, I’d never dream of going out running and being around members of the public would haunt me. However, those remarks stuck in my mind and played on me for a few days like some things do. Eventually I started the process of looking into clubs and fitness etc. It made me feel weird, it may me feel uncomfortable and it didn’t happen to start with.
Thankfully Help Musicians, a charity that has significantly assisted my journey back to work was responsible for enabling me to have the finance to access the local council gym and swimming pool. They have covered the gym expense and I’ve been a regular user ever since. At first it was horrible, I was literally full of anxiety and sweating heavily before even entering the gym. At this time I was considerably bigger than I am now and was extremely unfit.
It was around this time that I also realised I had a mountain bike, stuck under a pile of rubbish in the garden! Bingo. I repaired the bike and now it’s my main mode of transport, unless I’ve got a hire car or use public transport.
Most days I go to the gym, swim and often finish up with a 10m bike ride. I’m grateful for being fit and well enough to get outside and enjoy life now. 12 months ago I was locked away on my own, struggling to make sense of anything, burned out after 2 years of working 16 hour days, 7 days a week.
Ironically it was the charities of the music industry that fuelled my rehabilitation, it was the charities that swept up the mess that the Industry had caused. The Government system wasn’t there at all, it was through serious fighting and my own resilience that I was able to eventually receive ‘some’ support from DWP, albeit after I’d lost everything.
Progress is possible
Mental illness, struggling in anyway, shape or form with your mind and emotions is not easy. It’s the pits. Invisible conditions are the worst when you look ‘normal’ and somehow society profiles you and tells you to just get on with it.
I appreciate we are all different, I appreciate that we cannot all do what others do. My only reason ever in writing these blogs is to send a ray of hope, even if it hits one person. If I can inspire one person to find the strength to move forward positively then its all worth it. The amount of messages and contact I have from fellow men and others on the spectrum, including families of those who are also struggling, is why I do this. It’s for the people who are waiting for closure or some understanding that quite frankly doesn’t exist in society. It certainly doesn’t come from the government. They talk the talk but very rarely do we see anything of substance at street level.
Furthermore, bravado can jog on. Being able to face your problems and find closure is the only way to address them with clarity. It’s hard and takes a lot of courage to face the demons that have tainted your existence.
I sincerely hope anyone who’s stuck or unable to get outside can find the strength to do so. Try a bit at a time and try at your own pace. Surround yourself with positive people who lift you up. You can do it and you can find inner peace. Sending you some strength and cosmic wisdom.
Peace and love. Shouts to all the survivors of modern society.
Go for it 👊🏼